Peace amongst the chaos….
Sitting here by the water, the warm spring breeze blows thru my hair, the sun’s heat kisses my face, I can here the water lapping up against the rocks… I unwind from the chaos brought on from the day… I look around and everything was created by God. The bugs buzzing around my head… the ducks swimming in two’s.. the wind blowing.. You created them to do exactly what they are suppose to be doing. The trees stand tall… the grass covers the ground like a blanket…. and even thru all the chaos there is a peace... thru all the pain and tears there is a peace.. thru out the fight there is a peace... He is ny peace... regardless what is going on around me all i need to do is retreat to our secret place....
He sees what lies inside
That secret place we try to hide
Its time its in the light
Never tire of this fight
He gives us the strength to go on
Who is leading your life?
Posted in on Friday, April 16, 2010 by For such a time as this...
Who is leading your life? It's a fairly simple question when you think about it. Right? As a Christian you could give a super spiritual answer... The Lord leads my life! But is that entirely true?! I am about to become as transparent as a glass of water, if that offends you turn your computer off now! I have always been lead by my emotions. If I was sad I was lead by that. If I was angry I would base decisions on that. If I was happy I would be more happy then anyone I knew. This rollercoaster of emotions is a pretty scary ride. One I do not encourgae anyone to get on.
One day I thought I had figured out the trick to not get so "sick" on this ride! A man can just make everything better! Brilliant! Why hadn't I thought of this fix sooner?! Life would have been so much easier! Haha.. you laugh at this silly notion but hundreds of girls choose this ride. I loved this guy! I made him my everything! My world! I thought about him. I always wanted to be with him. I was consumed by him. I started to lose my identity in him. Oh I guess this would be the time I mention I am a Christian. I know all you super spiritual readers will wonder why I put a man before God. I didn't know any better. I kept walking down this road with this boy. I fell in love with this boy, all the while losing myself a little more each day. Now please don"t hear what I am not saying. He wasn't a bad guy. He tried his best to be everything I needed. It wasn't his job. I replaced God with a boy.
God was dying to get to know me. I had only been saved not quite a year when I meet this boy. God wanted me to fall in love with Him. I feel in love with a boy. God wanted me to depend on Him. I turned to the arms of a guy. God wanted me to find peace, joy and love in Him. Instead I did it on my own and filled the void with the only thing I knew, a relationship. The only relationship I should have focused on was my relationship with God. When I took my eyes off Him, I began to unravel.
The burden proved to heavy and the relationship ended to which i still feel the sting of loss. My identity was gone. I had no idea who I was. I had no idea who I was suppose to be. All I ever was, was his g/f. I am still picking up the pieces.
No one told me it would be quite this hard. I am on a different path now. My peace is found in Him. My joy and gladness come from Him. My identity is found in Him. I am a child of the most high God. I am loved. I am cherished. I am satisfied. To know God is to know love. To know God is to know peace. To know God is to know exactly who I am and not waivering. Not comprominig and not changing my convictions. I am who I am b/c of Jesus. I will be who I become b/c of Jesus.
One day I thought I had figured out the trick to not get so "sick" on this ride! A man can just make everything better! Brilliant! Why hadn't I thought of this fix sooner?! Life would have been so much easier! Haha.. you laugh at this silly notion but hundreds of girls choose this ride. I loved this guy! I made him my everything! My world! I thought about him. I always wanted to be with him. I was consumed by him. I started to lose my identity in him. Oh I guess this would be the time I mention I am a Christian. I know all you super spiritual readers will wonder why I put a man before God. I didn't know any better. I kept walking down this road with this boy. I fell in love with this boy, all the while losing myself a little more each day. Now please don"t hear what I am not saying. He wasn't a bad guy. He tried his best to be everything I needed. It wasn't his job. I replaced God with a boy.
God was dying to get to know me. I had only been saved not quite a year when I meet this boy. God wanted me to fall in love with Him. I feel in love with a boy. God wanted me to depend on Him. I turned to the arms of a guy. God wanted me to find peace, joy and love in Him. Instead I did it on my own and filled the void with the only thing I knew, a relationship. The only relationship I should have focused on was my relationship with God. When I took my eyes off Him, I began to unravel.
The burden proved to heavy and the relationship ended to which i still feel the sting of loss. My identity was gone. I had no idea who I was. I had no idea who I was suppose to be. All I ever was, was his g/f. I am still picking up the pieces.
No one told me it would be quite this hard. I am on a different path now. My peace is found in Him. My joy and gladness come from Him. My identity is found in Him. I am a child of the most high God. I am loved. I am cherished. I am satisfied. To know God is to know love. To know God is to know peace. To know God is to know exactly who I am and not waivering. Not comprominig and not changing my convictions. I am who I am b/c of Jesus. I will be who I become b/c of Jesus.
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